-*-MiNe-*-

Jan 2, 2004

she will saw off his penis with the dull side of a nail file...not even a metal file, one of those cheap sand paper ones...and the rest of us will poke his balls with toothpicks...shes so demented...I LOVE IT! lol

LIfe is so dumb...

Joshua is a fucking asshole. Him and Holly called me about 50 times on the 30th. Bastards. Apparently he wants his clothes back? What the fuck? Why now? I offered to give them back but he said he didn't want them. Even when we were getting back together I asked and he said no. So fuck them. They're mine. My memories of it. That's right IT. Or our 'relationship' that would have been exactly a year old today/yesterday. I didn't cry...but still...

ONE YEAR

Fuck that.

We decided several ways to give him them back, tho...

#1-Tell him he can get his clothes...and that my DAD will give them to him...that's right, my father who knows what he did to his sweet lil innocent baby girl...

#2-Tell him he can have his fucking clothes back...when I can have my VIRGINITY back!! lol Ash's idea

#3-Soak his clothes in gasoline and then throw them at him and laugh as Anna throws a match at him...

Good, yes?

Then there's always the nail file...lol oh my Anna...

Holly told Kelly that she's with him now. Ha! Yeah right. He's just trying to get to me...tyring to make me jealous. But why the fuck would I be jealous of that fat cow? Fuck them all...

I'm so bored.

Going out tomorrow night/tonight with the girlies...Ash, Shay, Kell, and Anna...fun fun. Saturday we're going to Ord for a wrestling meet. :D

I wanna hot tub...

Stevie told Ash that he thought I was "fit" LOL!!! "FIT" okay...my arms fucking jiggle when I walk. lol I could see SKINNY cuz I'm like 40 pounds under weight, but FIT...yes...and he's gunna make Justin talk to me :D lol yay! Justins sooo fucking hott...cool points for Steven...

I'm goin to bed...I got some *cleaning* to do tomorrow says mom...JOY!!

xOxO

marie

*I've decided I'm now going by my middle name...or maybe just for tonight...laterz!!!

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Dec 15, 2003

Urine Hair is a no-no!

I HAVE FOUND MY PROM DRESS

it is the fucking shit and im going to die im so in love with it...even tho its like a bridesmaid dress lol its fucking CHEAP too...

http://shopshop.com/Z1295.htm

ahhh...

School fucking sucks and semester tests are on thursday and friday and i have a fucking american history test tomorrow but pro said i didnt have to take it cuz ive been sick--yes!!

yeah, i've been sick for like the past week and i like totally lost all hope of opting out of any tests--fuck.

ashlee pissed me off. she told sean to take me to snowball. ewwww! sean!!! yeah...bitch...but i cant be too mad cuz she finished our like 20 page play :P

kelly was all bitching cuz we were gunna go over to annas tomorrow and we forgot to ask if she could and she like cant so now we're not gunna...god...fucking baby...

she like lovessssss alex and i dont really like him anymore...he dresses weird...like bad weird. like UGLY weird. and he talks funny.
i do not approve...plus hes a fucking madison county guy and hes got

urine hair

im gunna go watch some tv...people are fucking boring tonight...

XoxO
meg

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Dec 11, 2003

been a LONGGGG fuckin time...

it has literally been MONTHS since i've been on here...i guess i've been busy or something...maybe i suddenly like got a life lol ;)

yeah, one act is over now and it was a total BITCH...a lot of things have changed i guess

first of all--I AM OVER JOSH

kiss my ass you fucking asshole!!

anna gave me the best advice EVER on Halloween (we were Charlie's Angels!!) (And no, we are NOT too old to go trick-or-treating!!) yeah...but it did the trick i was a total fucking BITCH to him when he called me that night...and i didnt call him back :D then he was tryin to talk to me some night on msn and i was beyond being a bitch...i was COLD...it was so great :P he tried to call me like a week after than and i was just like FUCK OFF!!!

im so PROUD of myself...i haven't cried over him in like MONTHS and i dont even care anymore--FUCK HIM and like i said i dont need someone like HIM in MY life...

schools fucking gay (like always) ive been sick the past 3 or so days :S its a bitch :P

been meeting TONZ of seksy guys with the girlies, but kelly stole my most recent luver BITCH! jk, she can have him, i think hes kinda weird...

im gunna go now tho...so everyone can tell me how much they MISSED ME and my PIMP BLOGS!

xoxo
megz

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Oct 8, 2003

life without sex sux lol

im horny lol

i wanna see the texas chainsaw masscre soooo bad...but im not old enuf... :( im gunna talk ashlees boyfriend steven into taking me, hence he wants to see it but ashlees a freak and doesnt like scary movies...maybe ill just go with anna...or like amanda...or lol i could ask kenneth to take me lol be like HEY SUGA ;) lol

school is boring...

eric didnt rape me in my sleep last night...hence its not rape if youre willing...lol jk!!!

im wearing luis's football jersey for spirit day on friday...im gunna look pimp shit, seriously...i stole brandons sweat bands :D im a stud...

anna dressed as a hippie today--she looked like SUCH a FREAK...it was great though...

im bored outta my mind...its only 9:30...omg...i need a life...

our poor lil frosh spencer doesnt have a homecoming date...i should ask him lol...i molested one of the hueshen twins today...derrick...his lockers right next to julias...he was like kneeling in front of it and i like walked by and like caressed his head/foofed his hair...and he like turned around and hes like hhhiiii...lol it was so great

we moved seats in american history :S i sit by kenneth :S ewww!!! lol im in front of adam p and next to luis YAY!!! im still behind moo tho... uhh :S

im goin--cyaz

megz

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Oct 7, 2003

omg!!! nose bleed!!! lol

lovely quote from adam p--today in study hall he was being a dumb ass like always, but today it was actually funny

school yesterday was sooo fucking homosexual its not even funny. like all my friends/anna ashlee and jula--left at like 10ish before these stupid ass "sessions" began. like the stu co sponsored them--they were like mini-therapy sessions with like 60 peoples in each one about like drinking, sex, divorce, stress...omg it was horrible...

i almost DIED of boredom...

but like this one guy is reallyyyy super cool. hes like smiley tie guy. hes got like this big business or whatever and his website is like donttugthewire.com i think...he was sooooo funny...

anyways, today was dumb...pretty boring and uneventful...i dressed hawaiian, hence im just BUBBLING OVER with fucking school spirit...i wore ashley w's seashell bra lol--it was pimp but made people (LIKE SEAN) think that they could just like touch my chest and itd be okay cuz i was wearing a seashell bra...perverted people lol

lance for MY school molested me during lunch...i was like walking by him and luis talking and lance like pointed at me and im like HI LANCE! and he like kept holding out his hand so like i took it and he shook it and i was like my hands are so cold and yours are really warm (im an idiot, i know--it sounds so homo, but it didnt sound so retarded when i said it, trust me...) so he like just like stared DEEPLY into my eyes and like grabbed my hand and held it/massaged it for like 10 minutes...hes creepy sometimes...he didnt even talk like at all...i think he was high, seriously...

ewww!!

okay, tramatic story time!!!

in the hall before am history eric went up to julia and was like came i touch your boobs and shes like hell yeah and he just like looked at her and like turned around and came over to me and hes like meghan can i touch your boobs and i like moved my lei and like stuck out the seashells (lol) and i was like go for it and he like put his hands like thisclose to them and then he like looked at me and is like dont tease me and tell me i can cuz you know that ill do it.

anyways then after am history like before the last bell he like comes over to me (after staring at me all thru class--i could FEEL it...and i saw it too lol) and hes like do you wanna woogie doogie after school and i was like no and hes like why and im like i dont do that anymore and hes like why and im like just cuz and hes like did you have a baby and im like yes and hes like seriously and im like no and hes like did you THINK you were going to have a baby and i was like yes, MANY TIMES and hes like seriously and im like no eric.

so then he like okay then, do you still do the sucky sucky and i was like nooooo and hes like why and im like im just not like that anymore ;) and hes like i see...turning me down...

so then i walked over to the door and like was standing there talking to luis waiting for the bell to ring and he like comes up right behind me and like totally ass raped me and OH MY GOD I FELT IT

IT!!!

YES, IT!!!

AND IT WAS VERY "EXCITED"

ewwww!!! lol

then after school i was at my locker with ashlee and i had like JUST begun to tell her my tramatic story when eric like walks up behind me and like put his arms around me from behind, pressed his WHOLE BODY against mine and like pulled me REALLY tight against him...and hes like (to ashlee) tonight were gunna have sex and ashlees like realllyyy?...and hes like yeah, i got permission and then he like let go and walked away...but i had already FELT IT AGAIN!!!

i was soo scared...so was ashlee when i told her my story lol shes like omg!! lock your doors and windows tonight--HE KNOWS WHERE YOU LIVE lol

im just so god damn dead sexy that no one can resist me...lol yeah right--no one except for joshua...

im getting better at not thinking about him...i think i'll call him like next wednesday or so-ish...

too bad he had to dump me before homecoming...i couldve had a date...but i dont...im a loser...even jula has one--ZACH asked her...like EVERYONE has a date...EVERYONE...i seriously cant name ONE PERSON without a date...except ME...i wanna go to see the decorations and shit, but i dont wanna have to stick around and be introduced to peoples luvers...or watch anyone make out or dance...maybe ill go with the guy kellys date justin is gunna have her sign it...maybe...

im sleepy...laterz

meg

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Oct 5, 2003

meh...

went cruising with ashlee and anna and kelly on friday night after the football game (which we won, we're 2-3 now). it was fun i guess i was sorta pissed cuz ashlee like just invited them w/o asking me...but we had fun. i met their dan--hes hot and he kept staring at me in my rear view mirror...

went to CHUCKY CHEESE on saturday for dereks bday yay! lol sadly it was the first time i had ever been there...and im 16 lol

then we went shopping--it was great

joshua called me when i was in aero...i only talked for like 4 minutes and i was like im kinda busy, can i just talk to you some other time? kinda bitchy...so i called him back like an hour later and told him sorry and that my mom was like asking me who i was talking to...and then i asked if i could be like completely honest with him and i told him that i was torn into 3 different emotions...a part of me wanted to forget about him and hate ahim and another part wanted none of this to have ever happened...for things to be like they were before...and the last part like wants to just put aside us having ever been together and be friends anyway...he was like i see and im like im dumb, i know...and hes like yeah and he laughed...then he was like but i gotta go i just got to my grandmas and so hes like ill talk to you some other time...

i dont know if he hates me/thinks im crazy/wants me back/wants me to go away/wants to be friends or what...he did call me...and he sounded kinda hurt that i didnt go to their game on friday...and when i called him back and he didnt answer he did call me back w/in like 5 minutes...so i dont know...

this week is spirit at school...tomorrow is pajama day tuesday is hawaiian day wednesday is angel/devil day thursday is blast from the past day and friday is blue and white day...ill do tomorrow tuesday and friday pry...i think ill ask luis for his jersey for friday...

speaking of luis...at the game on friday he was like all flirting with me and hugging me and like cuddling with me for warmth...and like at school im always like blowing adam kisses and winking at him and telling him i luv him and luis is always like im hurt/what about me...i think he wants me...hes a cutie but not meghans type...

you know who is meghans type? LANNCE!!! lol i want him ive decided...even tho i dont know him very well...i still know enuf...hes cute, dresses nice, is a sweetie, and hes from H-TOWN!!! amanda thinks wed be cute together...so thats good enuf for me...or at least good enuf for my rebound fling

im sleepy--laterz

megz

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Oct 2, 2003

my life is so boring and sad

I want to talk to joshua sooo bad, but hes gunna have to call me...he said he would...he promised...i havent talked to him for 8 days now...he hasnt dialed my number for 2 weeks...i miss him so much

Moving on...i called amanda tonight...lance told justin that he missed amandas "hot cousin" being in town on Saturday�yay!!! Thats me!!! lol He also said he was sorry for being so quiet and shy...kew huh?

lol�I need a man!!!

omg, i told ashlee about this dream i had last night--it was about bryce...shes the one i told about my kinky sex dream about josh lol ;) and shes like omg, poor meghan--youre so horny lol sad and true

I'm gunna go tho...football game tomorrow nite :S fuck...spirit week is next week oh joy

Laterz

megz

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Oct 1, 2003

my life is so boring and lonely...

i havent talked to joshua for ONE WHOLE WEEK...

a week!!!

i want to talk to him sooo sooo bad, but he said that hed call me...HED call ME

hed best call me soon

i miss him so bad, even though its already been a whole two weeks...i still cry like when our song comes on and theres commerials for movies i saw with him or like was planning on seeing with him...

i like NEED to talk to him...this is the worst...

maybe i'll just call amanda instead

everyone keeps harassing me about homecoming--are you going? you HAVE to go...blah blah blah...FUCK THEM!!! everyone has a date EXCEPT ME so im not gunna fucking go, okay!!??!

hello, the only guy that ive ever loved dumped me after 8 and a half months, and today would have been 9 months...so im not really feeling the happiest right now...if they want me to go so bad, then FIND ME A JOSH REPLACEMENT...

even though no one with ever be to me what he was...i just really need somone to take my mind off of him right now...i really should call amanda...maybe matt or lance or scott said something about me...hopefully

im gunna go eat and shit...maybe do a little crying and tv watching...

laterz

megz

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Sep 28, 2003

all ne state p's can GO TO HELL

i went to h-town last night to see amanda...it was great...i saw matt!!! hes soooo sexy. and like i kept hitting on mandas friend lance--hes such a cutie!!! yeah...but i didnt fufill my goal of making out with anyone...im just not agressive enuf, i guess...but i did get to ride in lances truck!! yay!! yeah, but the night sure could have ended better...

i got a speeding ticket...

it sucks major ass...my first time getting pulled over and i didnt even get a warning!!! 116 bucks!! and moms making ME pay for it...waaa!!!! i was going like 74 in a 60 zone...its not like i was endangering anyones lives--there were no cars in sight at all...im never speeding again dude...and i got a warning for "obstruction of view" cuz of the leis on my rearview mirror...asshole state p...god...

i like balled my eyes out...

but yeah...schools gay...i need a homecoming date...and i had a dream about joshua last night...and its too dirty to say...lol im serious, not joking...it seemed so real, too...

this sux...i wish that i could just forget about him...i need to get over him!!! i need to replace him like RIGHT NOW with someone better...its weird...and like really hard to go from like belonging to someone to not...to feeling totally and completely in love to just not...i hope he calls either tonight or tomorrow...i just need to talk again...

i havent had sex for 3 weeks...i havent even been touched for like 2 weeks...unless you count when brett like literally molested me on thursday being touched...seriously he like touched me in a very inappropriate place...down below...perv...

*sigh*

i need to get going on my journalism articles--theyre due tomorrow...but its not worth it...im just gunna ask for an extention...

god...im like so...i dont know...like desperate right now...i need a guy again...i need a date to homecoming...and i NEED to STOP thinking about josh...whatever...

laterz

meg

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Sep 23, 2003

things are lookin UP

i called josh tonite...

we talked for like an hour and five minutes...

im so happy...it wasnt like awkward at all...yay!!! lol i dont really want him back, but i do kinda...i dont really feel like i still love him, but i know that i do...i cant really help it...

it was really really great talking like we used to, though...it felt really good...really really REALLY REALLY REALLLYYYYYYYY GOOD!!!!

YAY!!!

:D:D:D:D:D:D

im such a spaz...but im not gunna like type down EVEVERYTHING that he said...cuz then ill pry just end up being disappointed again...but he DID say that he wanted me to go to the game friday...like im soooo sure that he said it that way too...he was like are you going to the game friday and i was like i dont think so...thatll just be too weird and hes like why...you should go...and i was like i dunno...and then later hes like so are you gunna go to the game? and i was like i dont know...do you actually want me to and he was like i dont know...its not like im gunna have a problem with it...he kept like bringing up like sexual things...but thats just him...and like he told me about a dream he had about me...and he kept saying that i was flirting with him...but he was actually the one flirting with me...

we OBVIOUSLY still have feelings for eachother...its not just one sided...i know its not...

anyways...he said that aaron asked for my number...i was like omg you gave it too him right...and then im like no im just kidding and hes like yeah, okay...and then i told him about what ashlee said about me bringing him to homecoming and how i said no cuz hed like rape me and josh is like yeah, i guarantee you like hed definetly try having sex with you...hehehehe!!! options!!! lol ;)

sorry, megs a lil horny, hence she hasnt had sex in like 3 weeks!!! and i pry wont for like months and months...waaaaaaa...lol ;)

im just so happy right now...yayayaya!!!

ewww...and yeah, like this kenny guy in my american history class asked me today if i wanted to "hang out" some time...i just like looked at him for like 5 seconds and then turned away...it was so great...

but im gunna go...and ponder whether or not i should go to fridays game with michelle or not...

lata!!!

megz

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