i went to h-town last night to see amanda...it was great...i saw matt!!! hes soooo sexy.  and like i kept hitting on mandas friend lance--hes such a cutie!!!  yeah...but i didnt fufill my goal of making out with anyone...im just not agressive enuf, i guess...but i did get to ride in lances truck!! yay!!  yeah, but the night sure could have ended better...

i got a speeding ticket...

it sucks major ass...my first time getting pulled over and i didnt even get a warning!!!  116 bucks!!  and moms making ME pay for it...waaa!!!!  i was going like 74 in a 60 zone...its not like i was endangering anyones lives--there were no cars in sight at all...im never speeding again dude...and i got a warning for "obstruction of view" cuz of the leis on my rearview mirror...asshole state p...god...

i like balled my eyes out...

but yeah...schools gay...i need a homecoming date...and i had a dream about joshua last night...and its too dirty to say...lol im serious, not joking...it seemed so real, too...

this sux...i wish that i could just forget about him...i need to get over him!!!  i need to replace him like RIGHT NOW with someone better...its weird...and like really hard to go from like belonging to someone to not...to feeling totally and completely in love to just not...i hope he calls either tonight or tomorrow...i just need to talk again...

i havent had sex for 3 weeks...i havent even been touched for like 2 weeks...unless you count when brett like literally molested me on thursday being touched...seriously he like touched me in a very inappropriate place...down below...perv...

*sigh*

i need to get going on my journalism articles--theyre due tomorrow...but its not worth it...im just gunna ask for an extention...

god...im like so...i dont know...like desperate right now...i need a guy again...i need a date to homecoming...and i NEED to STOP thinking about josh...whatever...

laterz

meg