went cruising with ashlee and anna and kelly on friday night after the football game (which we won, we're 2-3 now).  it was fun i guess i was sorta pissed cuz ashlee like just invited them w/o asking me...but we had fun.  i met their dan--hes hot and he kept staring at me in my rear view mirror...

went to CHUCKY CHEESE on saturday for dereks bday yay! lol sadly it was the first time i had ever been there...and im 16 lol

then we went shopping--it was great

joshua called me when i was in aero...i only talked for like 4 minutes and i was like im kinda busy, can i just talk to you some other time?  kinda bitchy...so i called him back like an hour later and told him sorry and that my mom was like asking me who i was talking to...and then i asked if i could be like completely honest with him and i told him that i was torn into 3 different emotions...a part of me wanted to forget about him and hate ahim and another part wanted none of this to have ever happened...for things to be like they were before...and the last part like wants to just put aside us having ever been together and be friends anyway...he was like i see and im like im dumb, i know...and hes like yeah and he laughed...then he was like but i gotta go i just got to my grandmas and so hes like ill talk to you some other time...

i dont know if he hates me/thinks im crazy/wants me back/wants me to go away/wants to be friends or what...he did call me...and he sounded kinda hurt that i didnt go to their game on friday...and when i called him back and he didnt answer he did call me back w/in like 5 minutes...so i dont know...